A spiritual journey ((diary of andronost))

[andy66252]

Here I am, I stand broken, a shell of my former self. I have done everything in my power to keep this world safe, and i have failed. ((tears coat the page for a short way down))


I promised to protect him, but I.... I let myself get caught in the moment...... I have committed a crime that is irreversible. I have come to the conclusion that I am no longer fit to live, yet I know I cannot kill myself by any means. ((You notice the next sentence is red, but then realize it's not ink but blood)) I have killed an innocent man, a man who didn't deserve to die. I shed my own blood to write for he shed none when I killed him. I have come to question all I have ever done. Was it worth it? I've killed those of evil intent by the thousands and yet I cannot kill one who was innocent without feeling as though I should no longer live.

The man was being controlled by one who was willing to kill everything. I set out to destroy the controller and save him. I did neither.... I killed him and the controller..... is still free. I will make this right..... but I don't understand how... Farewell to those of you I have made acquaintance with for I will be gone for a while. How long i do not know, but i must be alone. I must find myself for I have lost him. The proud man I once was is no more. I will set off into the desert to become the lowliest of the people in this world and here I hope to find the answers I seek. -Andronost

((more to come as I figure out what to do in the desert))

[sethd13]

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[andy66252]

((anyone have any suggestions on it so far?